Quick Before I Get Sidetrack'd

It’s days like these that make one wonder whether you’re cut-out for this motherhood thing…

The days that begin at 2:30 a.m. (thanks, insomnia) with the knowledge that there is a 19 month old to be chased all day; the realization that it is only a few weeks until the newborn will be keeping you up and the 19 month old will still need to be chased. The days when Da-da goes to get the toddler out of bed only to find her throwing up. The days when, based on the state of her bedding, the toddler apparently threw up all night long and you didn’t know because she never cried or called out in the night. The days when you run errands after 6 hours vomit free only to get home and the toddler to throw up again before you can get her jacket off. The days when vomiting ceases only to be followed by a diaper, the likes of which you haven’t seen since breastfed-baby-blowouts. The days of terrible smells lingering in your nose. The days of multiple baths and multiple loads of laundry. The days of cleaning upholstery and floors.

However, it is days like these when the busy toddler stops long enough to snuggle on the couch and read books; when long naps mean Momma gets a nap, too; when you realize that you are the only one who can make it better, ease the fear, and comfort with just the right snuggles.

It is these tough days, interspersed with the “routine” days, that make one recognize what motherhood is. It is days like these that when you appreciate that the positives far outweigh the negatives. It is days like these when you comprehend how deep your love is for that little one. It is days like these when you know you would never give up motherhood just to avoid days like these.